Back to Work after Birth of Baby: 1st Month Reflections
It’s hard to believe I’ve been back from maternity leave for a whole month. I’m thinking I should feel like screaming from a mountaintop, “YEAH WORLD LOOK AT ME – I AM A WORKING MOM – HEAR ME ROAR!” But what I really want to do is…sleep.
This has been the most exhausting month of my life. I thought leaving my precious Owen in the care of someone else was going to be emotionally taxing. But really it’s the stress of organizing, scheduling, and being present for everyone. I feel like I’m on the treadmill of life – running a mile a minute but not getting anywhere.
I once prided myself on the fact that I was on time (and most of the time – early) for everything. Now I can’t quite grasp that I get up at 5:30 a.m. and still have a hard time getting to work by 9:00. I even prep my hair the night before to save time. But it doesn’t matter because it’s not about me getting ready – it’s the 2 kids, the dog, lunches, drop-off at daycare, coffee stop (because after 4-5 hours of sleep I need the boost just to stay awake in the car), etc.
So all morning I’m stressed about getting to work on time. I even pump in the car to save 1 session during the day. Then I am rushing to get my work done so I can pump 2 more times during the day. I run to the nursing room so I don’t missed my scheduled time. I rush to eat lunch because that’s all I know lately. When work is over I rush to get home because I’m convinced Owen is starving by now (he’s not). Then, I rush to eat dinner so I can feed Owen again and put either him or Olivia to bed. Then I rush to get bottles and lunches together for the next day. Finally I have a few seconds to relax before I have to pump and get to bed because for sure Owen will be up 1-2 times before the alarm sounds again at 5:30.
Phew! I’m getting exhausted just typing this. I know this stage is fleeting and millions of working moms have survived but, since I’m in the trenches I just want to praise all of you who have successfully transitioned back to work from maternity leave. And I have to ask…will I ever sleep again?
Editor’s Note: Not too long after she wrote this post, (no surprise) Amy found her footing as a working mom and wrote about her best tips for managing babies first months and days in daycare.