Green Mom Takes on the Mom to Mom Challenge
When Modern Mom challenged us to take time for ourselves, I knew it was going to be a difficult one for me. I have plenty of time to take for myself once my kids go to bed at night, but usually choose to zone out in front of the TV watching shows I don’t even really like. It’s not time that is the issue…it’s guilt. I feel guilty for taking time for myself. I know I shouldn’t. I know it’s cliche. Unfortunately, that’s the way I feel.
Since Modern Mom said watching TV didn’t count (which I was kind of annoyed at), I had grand dreams of what I’d do with 30 minutes to myself each day…or added up to equal a few hours getting my nails done, or sitting at the library reading and sipping coffee. I even thought about going to bed a half hour earlier each night and counting that as “me” time. None of that happened, though I did manage to do some things other than clean, laundry or watch TV.
Day 1– I read my book during naptime instead of doing laundry or cleaning as I normally do.
Day 2– I opened the box and set up the sewing machine I got for Christmas.
Day 3– Started sewing the shower curtain I’d been “working on” since last summer. I managed to work on this for about two hours so I guess that’s combined time.
That’s it. That’s all I did but it felt pretty good. Though I still haven’t stopped feeling guilty about leaving the house and the kids to have time to myself, I did realize a few things about myself during this challenge.
1. I don’t actually like watching TV as much as I thought I did. Since I was more aware of how much I was watching because I knew I was supposed to be taking time to do something else, I realized how bored I was just sitting there.
2. I crave exercise and I crave quiet time to myself (I know, I know, I just need to stop feeling guilty and take the time). Another grand dream I had when the challenge started was to take a 30 minute walk each night. That didn’t happen but I need to find a way to motivate myself to do so.
3. I would like to shift my daily schedule so I go to bed earlier and wake up earlier so I have a quiet 30 minutes or so to myself each morning. The problem is that my kids wake up at or just before 6:00 a.m. so I haven’t quite worked up to a 5:30 a.m. wake up call each day.
So while I’d only give myself a C or C- as a score for this challenge, I think it did help me realize some things that in time will make me happy. Thanks for opening my eyes Modern Mom!