The Juggle: work, maternity leave and a new baby
I just realized today that I’m going to have a baby. A real-life baby to care for and nurture. And a career to balance. In 3 weeks…or less (if you ask my doctor).
Up to this point I hadn’t done much planning aside from digging the car seat out from the basement and conveniently plopping it in my dining room.
First, I had “the conversation” with my manager about maternity leave coverage. Of all things, this is stressing me the most out. So much is changing and happening in my department this year that I feel as if I’m going to come back completely lost and clueless about my own projects. What if they find my replacements do my job better than me? Or have better focus and not new mommy brain? How am I going to manage nursing when my baby is 1.5 hours away? Will I be able to balance work from home days with office hours?
Secretly, I am still plotting how I will answer emails and do some work on my big project while I’m on maternity leave. Though my manager insists this is not good work-life balance. He’s right but still I have these crazy notions.
Second, I had an ultrasound followed by an appointment with my OB. Baby is healthy (5.8 lbs), good heartbeat, a reminder about calling the office when contractions are regular, take it easy. Yup-yup-yup-yup. Then he spoke my language, “You are 60% likely to deliver between now and your due date.” Huh???? I was a week late with Olivia and now I need to plan to get everything done in LESS THAN 3 weeks. Ok, breathe in…breathe out.
So now it’s 10 pm on a Friday and I’m still working and have started a “baby prep” list of projects for this weekend.
But, you know what, I’ll be happily snuggling a cuddly little baby in 3 weeks (or less). And that makes me excited. Everything else will sort itself out. Right?